Putting in the Work

It's been a few days. I've gone places and had hands and hugs. I've talked and listened. And I realized I thought this would actually be easy. I've gone and done a lot of things and it takes work and endurance to do these things, time, patience, pace, and a line. But it also that's work. I need to work to make this work. I need to work harder for it to be worth it. And it needs to be hard for it, I think, to mean something more than just what anyone can do. It's scary at times, and not always fun, but it is what I want to do. My goal and I want to complete that goal. So I will work harder. And stop trying!

Speed Pumps

The more time I spend on this the more I get nervous. What do people think of me, do they see what I'm doing, do they care to understand. I have good intentions in a very critical world. It's hard to trust, love, respect, and be open when so many things can and have happened in all of our lives. I'm scared to be hurt, I'm afraid of being alone with out others, and mortified that I might not be seen for the good happy positive person I am and my good intentions to help others in anyways i can.

I really just hope that I will be seen for who I am. It's been so fun going to events and talking to people. I've talked about my purpose and what I'm doing but I guess I'm still a lil shy and need to push thur it and make it happen. I'm so very excited and positive. I need just a lil more momentum but I know I'm ok and doing what I need to. Thanks for support and let me know if there's anything I can do for you.