It's been a few days. I've gone places and had hands and hugs. I've talked and listened. And I realized I thought this would actually be easy. I've gone and done a lot of things and it takes work and endurance to do these things, time, patience, pace, and a line. But it also that's work. I need to work to make this work. I need to work harder for it to be worth it. And it needs to be hard for it, I think, to mean something more than just what anyone can do. It's scary at times, and not always fun, but it is what I want to do. My goal and I want to complete that goal. So I will work harder. And stop trying!
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Speed Pumps
The more time I spend on this the more I get nervous. What do people think of me, do they see what I'm doing, do they care to understand. I have good intentions in a very critical world. It's hard to trust, love, respect, and be open when so many things can and have happened in all of our lives. I'm scared to be hurt, I'm afraid of being alone with out others, and mortified that I might not be seen for the good happy positive person I am and my good intentions to help others in anyways i can.
I really just hope that I will be seen for who I am. It's been so fun going to events and talking to people. I've talked about my purpose and what I'm doing but I guess I'm still a lil shy and need to push thur it and make it happen. I'm so very excited and positive. I need just a lil more momentum but I know I'm ok and doing what I need to. Thanks for support and let me know if there's anything I can do for you.
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Overwhelming Numbers
1000000 is a lot of people. I look at the number and thing that's a big number... Like the size of a whale or a mountain. I live in the world where we go to the moon or are on tv and doing very extraordinary feats everyday. I'd like to be knew for something more than just me, I know that I did more than I had to, that's who I am. This is that fect. It's almost as everything up to now have got me here. And I'm ready. I'm so very excited and ready. It's just a number... I believe want and know I can accomplish this goal. And any more after.
Monday, August 13, 2012
Where to Go!??!?
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
Putting it together
I'm so excited to be in the place I am. It's not happy everyday but its ok. I'm working, enjoying the moments that I have, and just living. I believe I have so much of myself to give. I'm looking forward to meeting some many and doing what I can to make their lives more. Needed or not just to be as supportive as I can be.
I see the idea in my head. I see what I think of it but I feel I need to be open. I sometimes get ahead of myself and assume I know things without knowing. So I have to be open and powerless and let it happen. Work and steps will be made to push this further. I just have to go for it, and do it!